June 26

It isn't every day that I feel good. Today - I do. Work was good, dinner with friends, and now quiet at home with Lizzy Dog. Today I feel almost free from the constant pain that has made life so difficult. I feel good.

I am alone.

Have I posted this before? I don't remember.

Each morning I wake up alone.
There is nobody here but me.
When I come home from work - I am alone.
There is nobody to talk to
To eat dinner with
To fight with
To love

I am alone.
This is not how I planned life to be
How could I?
Tom was to be with me.
But - I am alone.

God is here.
Is he tired of my crying?
Tired of my whining of loneliness?
Does He truly want to hear of my pain?

I am alone.

Tired

I am here.
Tired - but here.
So tired of life and living,
Trapped in fragile shell
Heart beating
Lungs breathing
Tired
Sad

I am here.
Tired - but here.
Although I am tired
I am not sad to be here.
Only tired of so being.

Gladness return
Fill me again
Chase away the tired
The sorrow, the pain.
Leave me not alone.

I am here.
Tired - but here.