Haven't posted in a couple of days. Hard to balance work and time on computer. So tired - I go to bed early or veg in front of TV staring blankly.

Sometimes I feel so lost with nobody in the house at night. Other times, I feel good. It is hard to relax sometimes. The dog is starting to feel comfortable enough to bark but not ready to protect yet. She is so abused and not ready to trust yet.

My heart is healing but I am not healed. I am still broken and my heart still aches. My students help - their laughter and stupid antics make my day. But - - sometimes I just want to stay home and hide out. Lonely.