Saturday

I missed a day. It will happen again. But Friday was a long tiring day and I wasn't ready to write anything.

Saturday - both dogs are bathed, groomed, and look fine. I knew that Shilah had a lot of white on her - but it was a muted, ugly white. Today - it is white. She is absolutely beautiful.

Although I talk/write of other things, I haven't forgotten Tom or Mom for a minute. Their presense in this house is so strong. I survived Thanksgiving. I survived Christmas. But how long will I survive with their shadows all around me? They are still a part of me and I miss them. It hasn't even been a year since Mom died, less than 4 months since Tom died. My heart is full of holes. God help me - I hurt still.