Tuesday, October 18, 2011


It has been a long year. Adjustments are still being made and will be as time goes on. Different house, different income, different lifestyle. Adjustments. Not all adjustments are painful or grief bearing. I lost my husband not my hope. I am adjusting my life to include more peace and joy. More time is being spent in prayer and reading God's Word. More reflection, more closeness to spiritual things. Grief and joy sometimes seem to conflict with each other. To be happy and sad at the same time. To laugh and cry in unison.

I am alive. It seems odd to think it or to say it. I am alive. Where once it might have been preferable not to be - I am. Now - I rejoice in God's mercy - letting me live in the knowledge that He loves me and Tom will be waiting for me when it is my time. I was reborn - again. Reborn to hope, joy, and peace. Reborn to the knowledge that though I am alone - I am never alone. God dwells within. He surrounds me. He envelops me with His Spirit. I am loved I rejoice in Him. In the quiet of my home I sing to Him.

God of mercy dwell within
Hold my hand
Enfold me

In your arms I feel secure
And know that I
Am lovely

God of peace hear my heart
I am yours

In Your presence I rejoice

Let the adjustments continue - I am in the care of a great and mighty God.

1 comment:

  1. Ah, Becky, you are a study in living in God's Mercy. Thanks for sharing this.