Fragility

Today has been a fragile day. Before the nonsense at church - I was fragile. Everything is painful and incredibly undoable.It seems that tears never cease and joy is lost. Even my new fish missing. What a sad day. Tired of being asked when I plan on going back to work. I never want to go back. I never want to deal with other people's problems and pain. There is so much of my own. I will go back. But when? When will I get through a day without this level of lostness? When will a day pass without tears and horrific pain? Then - I will consider it.