Well - today I am going to put a concerted effort into doing some happy Christmas stuff. This pattern of sorrow and pain must be brought to a halt. There must be joy somewhere.
Where to start?
Could clean this dump I call a house. Not very cheery.
Could turn on Christmas music first though. That might help.
Effort just to think about putting effort into being happy this Christmas. But - it will be well worth it if it works.