Went to church today. Felt so alone and out of sync with everything and everyone. Cried too much. People were nice but it just isn't comfortable yet.
Sang about God the healer. Hard to get the words out - He didn't heal Tom. Actually He healed Tom perfectly but that isn't the healing I wanted. I wanted Tom to stay with me. My life is so upside down now. Before it was just difficult. Without him - impossible.