A day filled with laughter and smiles. Not ready for Christmas but ready to celebrate the birth of my Lord and Savior. Went to service with the kids tonight and it was uplifting and joyful. I love my kids. Spoke with the pastor, it was good to be remembered after all these years. To hear my husband spoken of with respect and sadness. As difficult as all this is - I am surviving. In fact, I am more than surviving. I am beginning to thrive. Not stressed all the time. Not crying all the time. God will be here - and I will do well.