I feel almost normal in some ways today. There is no lost feeling - no trapped in a haze feeling. It isn't that everything is OK - it is just different. I am missing Mom and Tom and Radar but not thinking of them all the time.
No word on the house yet. I have only heard that it 'looks good'. It will have to be enough for now. I need to get out of this house. Dear God, I need you too. Don't leave me alone.